Friday

I started meditating at 5:11 for 40 minutes, before potentially meeting Shams. He text a change from 6 to 7:30 (which is 4PM Iran time). Karuna today. 

I'm feeling sick, and meditating is a way to feel better. Supposedly Ajahn Chan used to meditate a lot when he was sick. 

One of my wives (not a bigamist, serial) didn't like how horney I got when I'm sick, I'm seeking physical comfort. Now when I get dirty thoughts, I focus on expanding the rapture, they're the canary in the coal mine for rapture for me.

Thinking about further restricting myself, being more disciplined in the new year. I don't really like new years resolutions because I'm always resolving to try harder about the things I care about. And I also want to be realistic and gentle in my push to the higher evolution. Today I am sick and it's not the day to go all out. 

Finished the Harry Potter movies (8), now onto the Fantastic Beasts (3). In the age of information you can't cancel artists because of problems, you wouldn't see anything. I loved the Potter movies, and the Fantastic Beasts movies aren't as good, but I'm going to watch them. 

Started reading Right Concentration by Leigh Brasington and I like this Pali quote at the end of the preface:

But when one lives quite free from any view,

is virtuous, with perfect insight won,

and greed for sensual desires expelled—

one surely comes no more to any womb

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